WEDDED TO DEATH

And so this is what your world can best give to you

You were born to life

Now you are wedded to death

Your dreams stop in a snap

Just like that.

Such a cruel joke

How silly it feels to have ever been born at all.

And then what?

You are so young and were so ready for life

This is so wrong

Should not end this way

Your mother hushed you and did what she could for your swollen eyes

“Momma, I don’t want to get married. Not yet, not like this.”

She told you again that you had no choice

This is our tradition. Our fate.  

People out there are crowding to celebrate whatever

They feast, have fun and all that

You, in your room weep and weep and weep,

You look at the sky

Raising your hands, sending your questions

But...

What do you know?

God has always been so silent

It’s dark.

You are free-falling

Into emptiness.

And you cry some more untill there will be no tears left

(I am crying for you, girl... I am sorry, there was nothing I could do for you as I passed your house in the middle of your wedding preparation and heard your story from some stranger I met during my journey.)

AKB, 29 November 2012