I HATE YOU, CHILD

Oh, when you just don’t behave the way I want you to

Do you know how much I hate you, child?

I grit my teeth and clench my fists to keep me from hitting you

You see, I was this close...

If only I didn’t give a damn to what people might say

Why is it that you can do and say whatever you want

And me, I cannot?

There are times when the only thing I regret is the day YOU were born

If an artist can throw away his broken piece

Don’t tell me I cannot!

How you are such a big disappointment

Oh child, why don’t you behave as well as I did?

I was an easy child, o yes I was

I didn’t give any headache to anyone

People were hard on me

But look how good I have become now

You don’t have any idea how difficult my life was

You should be grateful that your life is so well-provided now

Don’t you go making my life difficult again

Pay respect to me and do as I told you

Be good and don’t do any crazy-funny stuff

Or I will set a score behind our closed door

For I will not let you go away easily with it

Why can’t you be sweet like those other children?

What have I not done for you?

Didn’t I give you everything already?

I want you to watch your manner in front of people

Show them I am a good parent who teaches you well

Don’t you put a shame on my face

I told you: Don’t make me angry!

I screamed it at you, over and over!

Are you playing deaf on me, child?

How dare you scream back at me?

If words can’t reach you, then you see, my hands will

How it feels good to see the fear in your eyes.

Yes, that’s it.

It’s ME who takes control

Not YOU!

You are just a dumb child!

What do you know about what’s good for you?

You know nothing

You know fuckin’ nothing...

Ub-Ptlu, 20 Januari 2014